[{"content":" Coming Soon! # ","date":"8 October 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/the-becoming-of-the-new-me/","section":"Posts","summary":"Coming Soon! # ","title":"The Becoming of the New Me","type":"posts"},{"content":" Miah Furst # My experiences with this lady are very personal and private. My Autistic Self really does not want to share even the thought of her with another human being. But I *feel* that I must give *some* people the opportunity to *see* some of what makes me, me \u0026ndash; In order for me to find someone that is looking for someone, like me. And Miah Furst was literally the first person that not only got to witness the The Becoming of the New Me but also contributed to it quite a bit as well. And for this I owe her a great deal of gratitude along with the reassurance that neither her or this deed will soon be forgotten.\nNow, with that being said. I have just received a notice that they auto-renewed my purchase of the domain name miahfurst.com and so I had felt obligated to write at least a little bit as to the reason behind the purchase. I do not know if I can get my money back and cancel the auto-renewal or not. Let alone do I even know if I should or want to even do that. Analysis Paralysis is *REAL* and more than just a little Debilitating or \u0026ldquo;Disabilitating\u0026rdquo; which I just found out is not technically a word in the English Dictionary, but it should be! That is why the English language is one of the hardest languages to learn, because nine out of the ten rules they have, they turn around and break! And don\u0026rsquo;t even get me started on the Imperial measurement system! We\u0026rsquo;re the only idiots that decided using that fractions to measure with would be a bright idea. *Mutters*\nAnyWho! Sometimes I wish that I was still with her. But for some unexplainable reason and a few that are, us being together is just not a viable option at this time. And we\u0026rsquo;ll leave it at that. But *that* does not mean that I do not a have a good story to tell and that I will. That I will. Hopefully. Some day. *Laughz* But until then, as always, I would like to say, \u0026ldquo;Thank you for your time!\u0026rdquo;\nDate: \u0026lt;2026-10-08\u0026gt; (02:47)\nAuthor: Autistic -And- Foolish Lee\n","date":"8 October 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/miah-furst/","section":"Posts","summary":"Miah Furst # My experiences with this lady are very personal and private. My Autistic Self really does not want to share even the thought of her with another human being. But I *feel* that I must give *some* people the opportunity to *see* some of what makes me, me – In order for me to find someone that is looking for someone, like me. And Miah Furst was literally the first person that not only got to witness the The Becoming of the New Me but also contributed to it quite a bit as well. And for this I owe her a great deal of gratitude along with the reassurance that neither her or this deed will soon be forgotten.\n","title":"My Furst","type":"posts"},{"content":" Welcome to AuLivia! # Well The Autist and the Muse turned out to be a bit too much for the landing page! So I had move it to the posts. In short, I am trying to practice my creative writing amongst the other thousand projects that I have going on in my head. Some times I *feel* that *some* of the things that I come up with *might* help someone else. If nothing else I *try* to explain my reasonings behind my often odd behaviors that quite often goes Miss UnderStood and Miss Taken for something else.\nLike the name of this site for example. I had met a lovely young lady the other night and this site is more or less named after her. I Mice Elf, am not a female. Just thought I might *need* to put that out there. I would not be opposed to handing it over to a female later on, but for now I am going to use it because I like the name and it is fitting. Thank you for your time!\nDate: \u0026lt;2026-10-07\u0026gt; (21:47) Author: Autistic -And- Foolish Lee\n","date":"7 October 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/","section":"The Autist and the Muse","summary":"Welcome to AuLivia! # Well The Autist and the Muse turned out to be a bit too much for the landing page! So I had move it to the posts. In short, I am trying to practice my creative writing amongst the other thousand projects that I have going on in my head. Some times I *feel* that *some* of the things that I come up with *might* help someone else. If nothing else I *try* to explain my reasonings behind my often odd behaviors that quite often goes Miss UnderStood and Miss Taken for something else.\n","title":"The Autist and the Muse","type":"page"},{"content":" The Autist and the Muse # I can not think of a famous artist that did not, at one time or another, have a muse. I believe that it is practically a prerequisite, the fuel to the fire if you will. I once spoke about my relationships being like fire and gasoline and admitted that I was not sure which one I was. Miss Bonnie, the lady I was speaking to while sitting on her porch steps, had said\u0026hellip; \u0026ldquo;You\u0026rsquo;re the fire \u0026hellip; You\u0026rsquo;re the Fire.\u0026rdquo;\nWeather or not any of that is actually true, is irrelevant. The fact remains that I, like many before me, find Mice Elf to be inspired by very few people. And *most* of them just so happen to be female. Like the name of this website just so happens to be named after a lovely young lady that I had met the other night.\nI keep finding Mice Elf looking back at that night and trying to figure out\u0026hellip; What she did that made her so special to me. The answer really is not as sophisticated as my answers usually are either. She smiled at me for starters. Which may not seem like much, because to be Frank, nine out of ten times it usually isn\u0026rsquo;t. If you paid attention to how many smiles you seen on an average day, you *might* actually be surprised. I *know* I would be if I could actually intentionally do such a thing like that. I do however, believe that my subconscious mind pays attention to all of that and then some.\nMy poor, poor, lonely, tired brain. The inner conflict between my Autistic Self and my ADHD Self alone, is more than enough to drive a \u0026ldquo;normal\u0026rdquo; person to the brink of insanity I tell you! Only the people closest to me are fortunate enough to witness the comical conversations that we tend to have all by ourselves! As I spend nearly every single waking hour in my room. That is unless I have one of those \u0026ldquo;real jobs\u0026rdquo; that people tend to keep pushing me to get. Over and over, and over and over, and over and over again!\n\u0026ldquo;The True definition of Insanity, Is doing the same thing over and over again\u0026hellip; And expecting different results!\u0026rdquo; \u0026ndash;They Say\nI plead the fifth on my current \u0026ldquo;level\u0026rdquo; of sanity. I honestly could not tell you that I am sane, nor could I say that I am not. For all that I have been going through recently, and a lot of these things are things I cause Mice Elf! But AnyWho! I tend to keep a pretty good demeanor about me, all day\u0026hellip; Every Day. But then again so do most psychopaths right? *Laughz*\nNot that I am a psychopath, but there was a time then I actually considered Mice Elf to be a socialpath. This was of course, before I had found out about my Autism and this thing called \u0026ldquo;Alexithymia\u0026rdquo; and before you ask what the hell is that:\nAlexithymia is a personality trait characterized by a severe difficulty in identifying, understanding, describing, and processing one's own emotions. Literally translating to \u0026quot;no words for emotions\u0026quot; from Greek, it affects roughly 10% of the general population and is often referred to as \u0026quot;emotional blindness\u0026quot;. It is not classified as a mental health disorder, but rather as a subclinical trait or feature.\nDate: \u0026lt;2026-10-07\u0026gt; (21:45) Author: Autistic -And- Foolish Lee\nThank God for Adderall # Not Enough Dopamine To Take a $H!T! # I just took my meds at 22:20 on 10/07/2026 so I can eat, take a shit, a shower, and try to get *something* accomplished. I probably should stop bringing my laptop to the throne room with me, but at times like these\u0026hellip; I *need* all the dopamine that I can get!\nI have been trying to write an article on some of these things. I have to believe that there are still some good people left in this world. Although they tend to be few and far in between. The majority of the world appear to be unaware of their status in being Mindless Slaves of the System. I can not express the amount of sadness that I feel for and from these poor souls. I mean, you can not fix a problem if you do not see that you have one, now can you?\nI find Mice Elf fighting tooth and nail, day in and day out, and for what? I honestly don\u0026rsquo;t have a clue the majority of the time Mice Elf. There are times that I have to \u0026ldquo;shut it off\u0026rdquo; just in order to function in today\u0026rsquo;s society. And that is when I am fortunate enough to be able to \u0026ldquo;shut it off.\u0026rdquo; I have a link to a video that explains what I mean when I say \u0026ldquo;shut it off.\u0026rdquo; But I must say how funny and ironic it is when one of \u0026ldquo;them\u0026rdquo; try to tell me that they \u0026ldquo;understand.\u0026rdquo; Then go about trying to tell me how to act differently than I do. \u0026ldquo;No, don\u0026rsquo;t think like that. Think like this.\u0026rdquo; Got to love the amount of arrogance and conceitedness these people have! Not only do they believe that they are in control of their own lives, but they also believe that they have the right to tell others how to think and act as well. Little do they know that they are mere puppets. But AnyWho! Damn ADHD or whatever that is that keeps me switching from one topic to the next!\nAnd that is *exactly* when the depression starts to kick in! Which is all a part of a very vicious cycle, that does not appear to have an end in sight. When I had first opened this laptop up those hours ago, I had intended to write about how I had came up with the name AuLivia. Although I know I am not the first to come up with it, because https://aulivia.com/ was already taken.\nSo, long story short, it is about a girl. It is always about a girl with me. But it is not in the *typical* way that it is *usually* about a girl though. Sure, I would *love* to get into a relationship with someone that can understand and speak my language. Who wouldn\u0026rsquo;t? But even though that is a long running fantasy of mine, I am not just looking for that person. I am also looking for other members of my \u0026ldquo;tribe\u0026rdquo; as well. And I do not really do any of this \u0026ldquo;on purpose.\u0026rdquo; It is more of a subconscious act or instinct even. But again, this is one of those things that I do not have the words to describe, and just try to make do with the limited amount of words that I can use that others would understand. Which is actually not that many if you really stop to think about it. Which I am not going to! Not right now!\nMoving on\u0026hellip;I often feel the need to write, like I am now. Primarily to get some of the congested thoughts that constantly swarm around in my head, out of there. But when my writings come out like this, and not the way that they are *supposed* to, or like my \u0026ldquo;Potential Self\u0026rdquo; would write them. It is almost always followed by yet another deep feeling of what I can only assume to be sadness or remorse even? Hell if I know! It\u0026rsquo;s one of those not-so-good feelings, that\u0026rsquo;s all I know. *Shrugs*\nSo, *this* article that I want to write, is *supposed* to be about how Adderall is truly a gift from God. *BUT!* It really only helps me do things that I usually would not be able to do without it. Let me rephrase that, it really only helps me do *some* things that I usually would not be able to do without it. There are still quite a bit of things that I still can not make Mice Elf do, even with the Adderall.\nThen you get one of \u0026ldquo;them\u0026rdquo; asking you, when you act a certain way, if it\u0026rsquo;s because the medicine isn\u0026rsquo;t working. Bajeezus! They have no idea how frustrating it is to have to live in their world, speak their language, try to act the way that *they* think you should act\u0026hellip; And then have to answer questions like that while desperately trying not to insult their intelligence the way that they constantly insult yours. Oh man, now it\u0026rsquo;s coming out! Now I am \u0026ldquo;started.\u0026rdquo;\nWhile we are on the subject, they also don\u0026rsquo;t know that we can *feel* their disappointment is us. And that is when we are lucky enough to have only disappointed them. My personal favorite is when they are *disgusted* by us. That\u0026rsquo;s always a fun one! When they look down on us in such a way that\u0026hellip; Ahem. Moving on.\nYeah, and I am one of the more fortunate ones of \u0026ldquo;us.\u0026rdquo; There are quite a few of \u0026ldquo;us\u0026rdquo; that don\u0026rsquo;t even have the slightest of clues that they are one of \u0026ldquo;us\u0026rdquo; to begin with. That my friend, is also another sad sight to see. But! That topic will have to wait for another time! I have spent enough time in the throne room and enough time on this laptop. I must say though, this is actually one of the very few things that I am actually happy that I had purchased. And don\u0026rsquo;t tell anyone, but it\u0026rsquo;s actually a MacBook! Shh! I have a reputation to uphold! Thank you for your time!\nDate: \u0026lt;2026-10-07\u0026gt; (23:33) Author: Autistic -And- Foolish Lee\nNotes for the next time: The Throne Room and my Autistic Diet!\n","date":"7 October 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/the-autist-and-the-muse/","section":"Posts","summary":"The Autist and the Muse # I can not think of a famous artist that did not, at one time or another, have a muse. I believe that it is practically a prerequisite, the fuel to the fire if you will. I once spoke about my relationships being like fire and gasoline and admitted that I was not sure which one I was. Miss Bonnie, the lady I was speaking to while sitting on her porch steps, had said… “You’re the fire … You’re the Fire.”\n","title":"The Autist and the Muse","type":"posts"},{"content":" Autistic People Pleasing Sucks! # Okay, so I have known for a long time that I had a condition that they call \u0026ldquo;People Pleasing.\u0026rdquo; But what I did *NOT* know was how *BAD* I was with it! And now, my AuDHD brain has been nonstop trying to refactor so many things, that it truly is not funny! I already have been struggling just trying not to get Analysis Paralysis, and this\u0026hellip; This does not help that at all!\nYeah, so even right now, there are several things that I really *NEED* to be doing. But I really do not know what to do first! My room is quite a mess, I know that is one of my number one priorities! I have to go donate plasma like now, so I can get a little bit of money that I don\u0026rsquo;t know who I should give it to. I owe rent, all my credit cards are pretty much maxxed out, and and\u0026hellip; *Sighs* The phone just rang and distracted me. This is why I stay awake all night and try to work then. Too many distractions during the day for a lot of the things that I need to do. AnyWho! I am going to go eat, drink some more water and get ready to go donate. Thank you for your time!\np.s. I *feel* the depression knocking at my door. I am not going to let it in, but even the fight against that is exhausting. All these social events to where I have to pretend that I am someone or something that I am not, all of the time. Then these people have the audacity to say they understand.\nDo they really know what it\u0026rsquo;s like to analyze everything multiple times? Bah! I can\u0026rsquo;t even write about this right now. Thank you for your time!\nDate: \u0026lt;2026-10-08\u0026gt; (12:18)\nAuthor: Autistic -And- Foolish Lee\n","date":"8 October 2026","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/autistic-people-pleasing/autistic-people-pleasing/","section":"Posts","summary":"Autistic People Pleasing Sucks! # Okay, so I have known for a long time that I had a condition that they call “People Pleasing.” But what I did *NOT* know was how *BAD* I was with it! And now, my AuDHD brain has been nonstop trying to refactor so many things, that it truly is not funny! I already have been struggling just trying not to get Analysis Paralysis, and this… This does not help that at all!\n","title":"Autistic People Pleasing Sucks!","type":"posts"},{"content":"","date":"4 September 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/categories/blog/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Blog","type":"categories"},{"content":"","date":"4 September 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/categories/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Categories","type":"categories"},{"content":"","date":"4 September 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/ipsum/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Ipsum","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"4 September 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/lorem/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Lorem","type":"tags"},{"content":"","date":"4 September 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/categories/post/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Post","type":"categories"},{"content":"","date":"4 September 2022","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/tags/post/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Post","type":"tags"},{"content":" Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet # Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit. 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Integer ut elit sollicitudin, fermentum ipsum nec, tempus eros. Donec hendrerit facilisis maximus. Pellentesque eu mi ipsum. Vivamus diam tellus, varius sed dolor at, finibus tempus lorem. Morbi sed mauris quis enim vehicula hendrerit. Sed et sollicitudin est. Maecenas scelerisque ligula ac purus gravida, et feugiat nibh blandit. Integer id quam ac arcu convallis interdum eget sed libero. Aliquam varius est quis efficitur efficitur. Cras id turpis magna. Aenean cursus, libero auctor ullamcorper vestibulum, nisl risus consectetur nisi, ut molestie enim libero sed ipsum.\nEtiam sollicitudin # Etiam sollicitudin, ante ac fermentum varius, lorem ante congue mi, auctor dictum magna sem sed nibh. In et est id neque gravida aliquet quis a felis. Mauris tempor lectus ut gravida ornare. Curabitur at elementum tortor, in feugiat elit. Aenean auctor diam ut egestas rhoncus. Quisque tristique venenatis risus vitae suscipit. Nunc feugiat purus sed dolor gravida, non ullamcorper metus suscipit. Sed et tortor odio. Pellentesque at scelerisque nulla. In ut aliquam metus. Vivamus congue augue at pellentesque rhoncus. Donec a lectus tincidunt, aliquet libero sit amet, commodo arcu. Vivamus hendrerit quis augue eu lacinia. Sed sodales velit condimentum eros varius vulputate.\nProin tempor lorem # Proin tempor lorem quam, ac maximus lectus sodales et. Sed laoreet orci vel metus luctus lobortis. Nam ex velit, vehicula id tristique sed, blandit eu nisi. Quisque semper libero nec massa malesuada congue. In faucibus lorem at diam fringilla, vel viverra magna lobortis. Ut commodo est urna, ut aliquet enim sagittis ut. Nulla posuere arcu sed lobortis accumsan. Phasellus fringilla dolor id est lobortis feugiat. Quisque enim elit, faucibus a mauris non, mattis aliquet orci. Nunc sagittis viverra erat, id condimentum lacus suscipit quis.\n","date":"4 September 2021","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/posts/post-lite-four/","section":"Posts","summary":"Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit. Aenean in eleifend justo, vestibulum congue lacus. Quisque est libero, lacinia sed placerat ac, interdum id urna.","title":"Super cool article that I wrote","type":"posts"},{"content":"Alexithymia is a personality trait characterized by a severe difficulty in identifying, understanding, describing, and processing one\u0026rsquo;s own emotions. Literally translating to \u0026ldquo;no words for emotions\u0026rdquo; from Greek, it affects roughly 10% of the general population and is often referred to as \u0026ldquo;emotional blindness\u0026rdquo;. It is not classified as a mental health disorder, but rather as a subclinical trait or feature.\nCore Signs and Symptoms\n• Inability to label feelings: Struggling to differentiate between specific emotions (such as knowing whether one feels angry, anxious, or sad) or only recognizing a vague sense of feeling \u0026ldquo;bad\u0026rdquo; or \u0026ldquo;unpleasant\u0026rdquo;. • Confusing physical and emotional states: Mistaking bodily signals of emotional arousal—like a racing heart or tight chest—purely for physical sensations or medical issues rather than recognizing them as anxiety or stress. • Externally-oriented thinking: Focusing heavily on external events, logical details, and concrete facts rather than internal fantasies, reflections, or emotional experiences. • Difficulty reading others: Facing trouble recognizing or interpreting facial expressions, vocal tones, or body language in other people. • Interpersonal strain: Struggling to form or maintain deep emotional bonds, which can make individuals appear emotionally detached, unforthcoming, or indifferent to partners and friends.\nCauses and Overlap\n• Neurological and genetic factors: Linked to differences or structural variations in brain regions responsible for emotional processing and interoception (such as the anterior insula and anterior cingulate cortex), and it can run in families. • Acquired or secondary factors: Can develop or worsen due to traumatic brain injury (TBI), stroke, or severe psychological trauma. • Co-occurrence with other conditions: Highly prevalent among neurodivergent individuals, including roughly 50% of people on the Autism Spectrum, as well as elevated rates in people with PTSD, depression, anxiety, and eating disorders.\nManagement and Improving Awareness\nWhile there are no formal clinical treatment guidelines for alexithymia itself, emotional awareness is a buildable skill. Approaches often include: • Therapy: Working with a mental health professional using Emotion-Focused Therapy or mindfulness-based modalities. • Interoception mapping: Practicing body scans to consciously connect physical sensations (like hunger, fatigue, or adrenaline) back to emotional vocabulary. • Using tools: Utilizing emotion wheels, rating scales, and journaling to track internal states over time. If you\u0026rsquo;re exploring this for yourself or someone else, would you like to know more about the overlap between alexithymia and autism/ADHD, or practical exercises for improving interoception and emotional labeling? This is for informational purposes only. For medical advice or diagnosis, consult a professional. AI responses may include mistakes. 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It is not classified as a mental health disorder, but rather as a subclinical trait or feature.\nCore Signs and Symptoms\n• Inability to label feelings: Struggling to differentiate between specific emotions (such as knowing whether one feels angry, anxious, or sad) or only recognizing a vague sense of feeling “bad” or “unpleasant”. • Confusing physical and emotional states: Mistaking bodily signals of emotional arousal—like a racing heart or tight chest—purely for physical sensations or medical issues rather than recognizing them as anxiety or stress. • Externally-oriented thinking: Focusing heavily on external events, logical details, and concrete facts rather than internal fantasies, reflections, or emotional experiences. • Difficulty reading others: Facing trouble recognizing or interpreting facial expressions, vocal tones, or body language in other people. • Interpersonal strain: Struggling to form or maintain deep emotional bonds, which can make individuals appear emotionally detached, unforthcoming, or indifferent to partners and friends.\n","title":"","type":"page"},{"content":"","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/authors/","section":"Authors","summary":"","title":"Authors","type":"authors"},{"content":"","externalUrl":null,"permalink":"/series/","section":"Series","summary":"","title":"Series","type":"series"}]